The Day We Fell Out

Recalling back, it's been almost 2 months since I looked at her face. Everything changed since that evening...

That evening, I messaged her that I saw her with "someone I know". She replied with a ":-)". I replied with something of the effect of "Good bye and farewell". She did not reply.

Since then, for the following days, I had not talked to her, nor looked at her. I didn't know what got into her, but she wanted to talk it over with me... Frankly speaking, I was very PUZZLED. What was the point? I didn't really have anything to talk, nor the desire to hear from her.

Nevertheless, I obliged to her request, since I prided myself as a gentleman. It was mostly stuff of "sweet talking", as far as I can remember. Half of the time, I was in a trance-like state :)

What happened the next day was more "interesting". She followed up with an email, adding on to her "sweet talking". I was even more puzzled now. Why did she do this? Wasn't she awared that it was best to let time heal the pain, sore and the wound?

After 2 days of consideration, I decided to reply in a strong tone that I did not like what she did. Of course, I did this in a "clean and thoughtful" way, i.e. not fault finding. In a (selfish) way, I was more interested to see what she would reply. To me, this was already justice served.

What returned was almost like I had expected, albeit disappointing. She replied in almost a business-like manner, and obviously angrily and thoughtlessly. I had seen this coming, but it was still painful. It's karma in action, if I were to say. Yet I had not regretted, even until now. I still think this is the best way to settle this situation.

I wanted to tell her to learn to be more thoughtful, less childish. You cannot be pleasing everyone. Sometimes it's necessary to hurt and "kill", otherwise growth cannot happen. I do not know if ever she will get it, but I sincerely hope she does...

It's true that we were not in a relationship, but anyone can tell we are more than friends. Or maybe it was just my fantasy :) She should have rested the case, assured that I was just another jerk, another asshole in her life :)