Thursday, October 15, 2009

Having 2nd thoughts...

Came across a clip about "Unconditional Love", for a daughter. I began to feel bad about the justice I served. She was, after all, her father's daughter. And the thing is that, I looked upon her as one ignorant young girl now. Should I still be angry and bothered with her?

I know I shouldn't, but I can't help feeling that I would fall into the TRAP if I did this. I decided to keep it this way. Probably this will be the best for both of us, or the three of us. Like I said earlier, I can't help feeling I had set things up the way it is now, like some unknown powers and foresight. I still do not understand what all this means.

I know she is probably satisfied with the situation now. I have a feeling that she will not be truly happy with that man, but well, she begged for it. I have no qualms about it. I have more to worry about. I still want to cultivate the "Heart of Stone".

Does she have the right to be angry with me? Sure. Because I have served justice to her in the most severe manner, even though I knew she does not fully understand it. She is too ignorant for this. And I believe, at this point, that this is the best possible way things can turn out.

Do I have the right then? Not really, if I still cherished gentlemanly and chivalry manners. But I do not want to be seen as a "Mr. Nice Guy" anymore. I want to voice out and make known my feelings and thoughts.

"I shall hold both the sword with the crown, and hopefully the chalice as well. The wand shall be laid on my back, to signify the fire, the energy and the passion I have within me. The pentacle shall be my base, to remind me of my earthly roots and my potential as a provider."

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